Sunshine, Depression, and Other Fun Stuff…

The sun got up way before I did this morning. Although my eyes are covered by one of those masks, my body usually reacts to the light. Not today. When I finally pull open the curtains it is closing in on 11 AM. Everything outside is shiny so my room becomes shiny, too. I feel …

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Mirror, Mirror…

Her jaw moved fast. Up and down and up and down. Different than when you’re cold and your teeth chatter, hers clicked like a typewriter, only softer. The clacking stopped when she spoke, then started again as soon as she stopped. I assumed the movement was involuntary. Dishevelled, she wore layers of clothing, each as …

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Outside and In…

Colour might be thought an antithesis to depression. Art tends to depict the “illness” in shades of grey fading into black. In my experience, that’s pretty accurate. Of course, there’s so much more to it. There is the numbness. Stick a knife in me, I won’t feel it! There is the forgetfulness. Yesterday? What happened …

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Back From Black…

There is so much going through my brain. It’s exhausting! Thank heavens for meditation. Usually I’m pretty mindful, too, but presently I’ve got to be conscious of it. In other words, I have to work at it. My innards are like a kaleidoscope, whirling and turning. I don’t know how else to describe it, though …

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