Day 27? Wow

So, today was spectacular. No, nothing new and exciting just a decision to be spectacular and make the day fab. It worked. I feel amazing. For sure, some issues are still here, but so what? They’re here as reminders, nothing more. I still trust, believe, and remain committed to goodness,  and happiness. Abraham said it best today: 

Physical human has found many labels that they use, depending on how they feel in the moment, to try to describe their interaction with Nonphysical. We are Source Energy. We are Collective Consciousness – meaning a stream. We are a consensus of many (what you might call) Nonphysical voices. We are that which some have called angel. We are that which some have called God. We are that which some have called Inner Being. But most importantly (and we’ll use some of our favorite words again) we are focalized Consciousness, specifically responding to the vibration that you manage in your asking.
Ah, so easy…still we make it difficult. Let’s stop doing that!

G’night. Namaste ya’ll. Over and out. xx

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Waking up on day 26!

Wow. Today was amazing. It started out not so great because, well, because I wasn’t in the best place. Bahwham! I’m hit by a message from a friend – an advisor – questioning exactly where I’m coming from in this blog. I thought, ‘crap, not liking this!’ That’s when the yucks took control. I felt kinda sick, if truth be told. My head started swimming, my stomach turning. What to do? And then it hit me.

Remember I’ve talked a couple of times already about questions and how, when things are confounding us, we need to figure out how to ask the right question or questions in order to get in sync? Yeah, well today I put that into practice.

So I believe that thoughts create an energy flow inside and outside us. This energy attracts its likeness. Yes, this is the basis of the ever-so-popular, even trendy, Law of Attraction. And it’s pretty simple. If I’m thinking, “Crap, I feel like shit,” then my energy will be shitty, and I’ll even – yes, I will – end up attracting shitty experiences.

The opposite experience occurs when I think positive, happy, thoughts like, “I’m a goddess.” When I think that way I glow, am confident. I attract wonder and wonderful things into life. Each thought I have informs my energy, and, in turn, my energy manifests as a part of any experience.

So, what’s my question I hear you asking? Well, today it was this, and remember I wasn’t feeling great:

How can I feel better and be the energetic match necessary to attract more awesomeness into my life?

And that was it. I put it out and got on with my day.

Now, just for a sec, before I go on with today’s blogsaga, I want to get back to the old Law of Attraction. I need to mention that it’s not for sissies. If you decide to attract and don that cloak of awesomeness, you’ve got to move any boulders that might be in your way creating obstacles to your receiving what you desire. Oh, and you’ve got to make room in your closet for that cloak. In other words, get serious about what’s inside your head and do some honest cleaning.

And now, back to the story.

A short time ago, I learned something a bit new. It was about feelings. The teaching suggested that everything is manifested through a feeling. In other words, my first goal is to feel good. Did I feel bad? Yes. A lot actually. Inside, about myself etc. and so on and so forth. And so what happened today?

Well I asked that big question about attracting awesomeness and went about the day as mentioned. Ho hum until suddenly, serendipitously with angelic synchronicity, I felt the shift. I knew what was being asked of me, why my pal was raising concerns about my intention.

I’ve been letting my thinking dive more deeply into negativity than I realized. It was not my original intention – not at all. I know that when I feel good I bring goodness into my life. It’s law. What on earth was I doing and no wonder it’s been such a roller coaster!

So here’s a newish plan. Of course there might be the odd boulder that’ll need moving, but my intention is to raise the level of discussion on this blog. The only restrictions around are those I allow, so by getting rid of limits and believing, we will set off for infinity and beyond! (Thanks for that line, Buzz Lightyear.)

A positive trajectory feels good. I feel refreshed and inspired to ask lots more questions knowing the search for answers will direct me to become more aligned with my desires, too. Oooh, I think that’s another lesson.

Okay, that’s it for tonight. Much love.

Namaste ya’ll. Over and out!

25. Nepal.

25…

Day 25 was challenging. I ate little because of the move which has set me behind. When I move, I get bogged down for a bit until I sort out where things are and the like. That’s okay. I have days like that normally, too. Work was good although several clients did not show. And lastly, my car needed some attending to which means I’ve got to spend some unexpected coinage to keep it on its tracks. The latter took the wind out of my sails.

Remember yesterday, I wrote about money? I find the issue of money strenuous. It appears I’ve more to sort out about it, though. So I’ll do what I can by facing it all with gratitude trusting that all will be well.

With that written, I feel the doubts rise up. But then I think, money’s no different than any other challenge that repeats itself. Whatever the problem or obstacle is in a life, it’s there for a reason, it’s there to teach a lesson. Some problems are easily figured out. Take Nepal and those at Everest’s Base Camp. The survivors had one job – assist the injured. Simple. Take Nepal again, and those in Kathmandu needing water, shelter, or food. Somebody has to bring it to them. It’s that simple. Take Nepal yet again. The long road ahead is not so simple, but everyone will have to move through each moment taking one step at a time. People who can will help the grieving bury their dead, the homeless find shelter, and the orphaned, a family. In the wake of such catastrophic events, that is what is always done.

I’m wondering if there’s a message in that musing for me. I have always moved on. Somehow, I’ve made it through, I’ve buried my dead, survived suicide attempts, and found family. The odds were sometimes against me, but the will to try again another day was and remains strong. I want to see what tomorrow brings. So, I will got to sleep praying in this moment for insight and courage.

In the meantime, I also need to send healing, strength, and courage to a people in mourning. To the Nepalese community, my heart aches with yours.

I’m sure there are and will be fundraisers for these people. Let’s help them. They are a unique society and their home one of the planet’s sacred places.

I wish you all peace, and safe shelter tonight.

Namaste. Over and out.

Day 24

I watched, or better, listened, to “The Secret” on a loop as I packed up today. It got me thinking about where I am, where I’ve been and where I want to be. There are some dreams I’ve never given up on, some have dropped down the list, while others are gone completely. The big question though, the one I keep coming back to is, why do I keep rigging traps for myself, traps that catch me up every time? My dreams have all been within my grasp at one time or another, but I either walked away when on the verge of realizing it, or let it slip out of my hands. What’s that about?

One big trap for me has been money. I’ve always attracted enough, but barely. It’s as if living on the edge is preferred to that state of freedom and flexibility money brings. A few years ago, I told myself ‘no more debt’. Guess what? Should’ve been focusing on abundance. But it’s a slippery kinda slope, that.

I know I didn’t set out to struggle with lack. There wasn’t much of that attitude growing up. But at some point I decided to switch into this mind set of struggle and owned it, big time. But no more. I’m taking a good look at all those old patterns operating both covertly and in the open and am planning on working faithfully at changing. I hear the gurus speaking on the movie and realize whatever ‘is’ can change. I just have to be willing to start making that change and I am.

Money flows easily and consistently. I’m saying that and believing it.

So, that’s it for today me thinks. I’m all moved but not settled in yet. I won’t settle in, not really. I want to get moved from here soon and my gut’s telling me something’s about to happen that set things in motion with all that. Hmm. I’m excited.

Night night.

Namaste ya’ll. Over and out.

The About page has been added! It only took 23 days…

…and after yesterday’s humiliation in picture form, I must tell you I’m a bit queasy. Wow, what on earth was I thinking? I suppose I’d best get used to it. I can’t very well chart change without the glorious before shots splashed everywhere. Gosh. Are we having fun yet? Of course we are!!

So today’s blog is just this. BUT, I posted the About page. Have a read and let me know what you think. I’ll add more, but it’s good for now.

Namaste ya’ll. Over and out.

This post is kinda ugly. Day 22 is ugly. Sigh

Okay, yeah, there’s some ugly today. Let’s move past that and ask the big question, are we having fun yet?

I’m not sure if there’s been much fun so far. This all has to fun. Good gawd it has to be fun because we’ve a ton more days to get through and if they’re all serious – well – that’s just wrong!

So, I’m not sure what ‘fun’ is. It isn’t – at least for me – what’s about to happen. But you all might think it’s funny. That’s something inching toward fun, yeah?

Tonight I sucked back a bit of the grappa to get up the courage to post this pic. Okay, that’s a lie. I’ve been meaning to do this all along but putting it off for obvious reasons, so alcohol has nothing to do with it. I wish I could blame it on that, but I can’t. I took a pic of me flabby belly and it’s now public property. So you know, I feel a bit sick.

My hope is that in a little less than a year from now, a mimic pic will show a different belly. Is that possible? YES! Okay, I’m doubting that conviction right now, but please help me make it so. We’ll all benefit!

You can do that by keeping me true to my thinking, my beliefs. Of course, I’ve got to keep moving, and eating well. Will that ‘view’ really change? Let’s see if it does.

Changing thoughts and attitudes is one thing, but changing matter? Wow. Can we do it? I think so and it’s part of Re-do 365, to show we can do just about anything regardless of age if we believe – really believe – we can! Oh, and we must do the work, and stay focussed. Of course, it’s not really work if we’re lovin’ what we’re doing.

So that’s it because if I think about this much longer, I’ll not post it. Humiliating? Yep. Worth it? Let’s see what I post about 300 days from now, okay? Fingers crossed. 🙂

Till tomorrow, Namaste ya’ll. Over and out.

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Twenty one days.

Three weeks. 3, 7s. Cool.

So today I brought some clothes around to my new lodgings paying little attention to the cold and snow that seems eternal here now. Oh well, I really don’t mind. It is what it is. I ran some errands for a friend and took care of a few things on my to-do list. Not my tax stuff, but at least some stuff. All good. Oh, and I wrote – in my book. Woot! I also reviewed some old passages and know what? I LIKED what I read! That’s huge for me. I think it’s a breakthrough. Makes me feel quite happy, actually. But there’s something else I want talk about tonight.

Part of the 365 re-do is to better my body image. Like most women in the western world, I’m too fat, too wrinkled, too freckled, too…, too…, too… and I’d like to not lug all those ‘toos’ around with me for the rest of my glorious life. They’ve overstayed as it is and if they aren’t serving to better me, they need to become dodos. But hey, there’s a lot of them and I need to address them with patience, one at a time, and once for all.

So, I’m taking on this task by writing down the things about me that tire me out – the stuff I harp on, fixate on, and let eat away at me, tearing me down with each complaint. Some things I can easily change with accountability and a soupcon of discipline. Other things, I can’t readily change, or shouldn’t. Those I need to accept and love. It’s that simple.

As the days go by I’ll check in with you about progress regarding the above. I’ll talk to you about my weight and what actions I’m taking to cope with that. I’ve already discussed the action I’m taking on my fitness level, but I need to do more, and I will. One day at a time, though. Other things like my wrinkles and grey hair, I’m thinking about right this moment with a smile instead of a scowl. Step one.

Before I say g’night, I want to chat a wee tiny bit about gratitude. Today, I’m particularly grateful. While I’ve said a lot of painful goodbyes to loved ones, I’ve been blessed with magnificent hellos. The universe has been gentle with me these last many years. I am very grateful for that. Another woman, however, met with a fate only my head can understand because my heart cannot conceive of the pain hers feels. At 38, her daughter’s heart stopped beating and just like that, she was gone. Unimaginable, yes? She says how grateful she is to have known this wonderful girl who was her daughter.

Let’s honour her over the coming days by being grateful for everything. It’s not about losing because nothing is ever lost. Rather it’s about being grateful. That’s all. In the meantime, maybe we can call our mom or dad, kiss our kids one extra time, or make sure our partner hears us tell them how much we love them. Maybe the goodness generated by these seemingly insignificant gestures will enter the ether and float to that mother bringing her, if only for a second, some fragment of consolation.

Till tomorrow.

Namaste ya’ll. Over and out.

19 days so far and so good…I think.

Day 19 is a 10 so it’s my day. Woot!

The number 10/1 brings all sorts of new changes into your life, and there seems to be an element of luck within those energies. Through this vibration you have the insight to recognize and understand the needs of humanity, and the ability to bring peace and harmony to all.

#10 resonates with the vibrations and energies of leadership, optimism, confidence, independence, creative powers, success, energy, originality, adaptability, determination and individuality.

The number TEN reduces to the single digit of 1. The 0 appearing with the number 1 amplifies and magnifies the vibrations, energies and attributes of the numbers it appears with.

Leadership, confidence, optimism, energy, independence, creative power and every, success, original, adaptable, individualisation, determination.

OMG, that is like SO me. Okay, what? STOP judging me!

As you know if you’ve been following along (shame on you if you’ve not), the number 10 is the number of my new name. I definitely need to grow (quickly) into this number because it sounds powerful, yeah? Kind of scary but, I think I’m ready for it. Maybe it’s all tied to Re-do 365 which will help me live up to this description. And hey, if I want to, it is so!!

Today was good but have to ‘fess that I slept in. Apologies. I got up at 6:30 to pee and thought it was too early. I was sure I wouldn’t sleep long if I crawled back under the covers, but I did. Anywho, back on track for tonight.

Last thing for now is to tell you that I’ve a new temporary place to hang my panties. A long-time friend has offered a room and it’ll be great until I can figure out my next steps. That’s a load off.

And with that, it’s closing in on 9:30. I have to wash me face, brush me teeth, and head to the meditation pillow. OH yeah, that’s a daily routine. You should try it, you might like it!!

Till tomorrow.

Namaste ya’ll. Over and out.

P.S. Heads up. Gonna vlog tomorrow. Gonna be a good one. Tune in.

18 already…

18…wow.

So I wrote about me getting into a sleep routine yesterday. So far so good. I know it’s only ONE night. But it’s a start, yeah? Tonight (fingers crossed) will be night numero dos.

The other thing I wrote about was watching “The Secret”. Now, I’m sure it’s not the be all and end all for everyone, and furthermore, flaws might be easily found, but that’s not what I see or hear. When I watch it and listen to the stories, the messages empower me. I hear voices iterate and reiterate a message of healing and living with choice. The choice is whether to live with limit, lack and disease, or to live with abundance, wellness, and unlimited possibility. I choose the latter!

And so of course, right now I’m feeling kind of yucky. In spite of all the good feelings moving through me, when I felt put on the spot, what did I do? I lied. Moments ago I let the old pridey crap rise up, and then I get all in my huffy zone feeling threatened and a loser, and from there decide a lie is better than the truth. What the hell? I need to take responsibility for that. Blah. Once again I’m reminded that I need to communicate more clearly and with absolute honesty, and when I cannot, keep my feckin’ mouth shut! Sigh.

Okay, enough with the true confessions. But seriously, what comes over me? Okay, I know what comes over me and I’m happy for one thing – I know I’m doing it. By coming clean, I start to put some solid distance between loving, kind me and pridey, self-defensive, easily threatened me. Woot!!

And with that, it’s back to all those really good feelings inspired by the message in “The Secret”. Lovely. Such gratitude.

Till tomorrow. Night night.

Namaste ya’ll. Over and out.