Hi friends. I’ve so much to tell you that I’ve no idea where to begin. I’ve been doing tons of stuff from salsa dancing to reading excerpts of the book in public places, to meeting some cool people. The book is about 3/4s done and I’m happy with the plot line and characters, by the way. I’m also close to finishing the query and have an end of the week deadline for it to go out. All in all, I’ve made great progress since coming here. But as abundant and grateful as I feel, there are still challenges. I wake up in a cold sweat many mornings wondering what my next steps will be, how I’ll manage. That’s odd, isn’t it? I mean I’ve made it this far which as many of you know is a long, long way from where I was when I started. I’m different inside and out and can boast quite the list of extraordinaryly miraculous events. So, why heed the fear? Of course, the only answer I can come up with is – old habits die hard. And, that written, it’s good to see it in black and white – I’ve made it this far why not believe I’ll be just fine tomorrow and the next day.
The other day I drove. I haven’t been behind the wheel since I left England and its been almost two years since I drove in Canada. Of course, all was well. It’s like riding a bike, eh? That’s the analogy I need to hold to. Few things are as scary in reality as as I imagine them to be. So why do I let things take hold of me and slow me down if only for a second? I don’t know, but I think that’s what I want to ponder for the rest of this month – fear. A biggie and a short month, but it’s a good one.
Wishing you all courage. We all need a dose of it daily. Sometimes it can help us simply step off a curb, other times it can help us look at a situation differently. Swallowing fear is a courageous move because it means we’re brave enough to try. And trying is what it’s all about.
Until tomorrow…
Hello again, friends!
Hello Friends!
Dearest friends!
Hello! How is everyone? Goodness, I’ve been beyond neglectful of you, but trust me when I tell you how much I miss writing to you. Further, there is seldom a day that goes by when I do not try to get a note off. If, as has been too often the case, I can’t get connected, it frustrates me something awful. Still, I dutifully save the blog on my desktop in the hope I’ll use it later. Thing is, I seldom do. It just doesn’t cut it. The blog was always intended to be spur of the moment, not polished posts. For me, too, because the reflections are daily and meant to be, what I wrote yesterday is not necessarily relevant the next day. For example, I went hiking yesterday in this rough and rugged place. It was what I needed and I loved being out in the sun and warmth walking among the ancient cedars. Today, I’m at a small airport watching some friend skydive. Not sure I’ll jump, but if not today, perhaps another day. We drove to this facility, but I’ll fly back, sailing over the landscape I walked yesterday will be amazing enough.
Hello! I am losing all track of time suddenly. How long has it been? If I actually checked, I think I’d find it’s only been a couple of days, it just feels like forever. Anywho, there is so much happening inside and out and I long to tell you everything!
I’ve missed you! Of course it’s only been a couple of days, but my last note to you was so brief. I wrote it on my phone in that new spot I was telling you about, and while it is nice, there were too many distractions there that night. In other words, there was more I wanted to say! So, here goes.
Dearest Readers,
A few uncomfortable feelings intensified into a moment of actual despair this morning. I threw up my hands and cried like a baby. Obviously, the angst passed. I squirreled my hair up onto my head, threw on some mascara, brushed my teeth and headed out. I was met by a cold wind. I walked to the market and have been on my arse since noon writing emails, researching, and simply making an effort to remind myself that my life is wonderful, and that there’s nothing to be afraid of. All will be, as the saying goes, well.